🧵 thought of the day + personal art
Anonymous at Wed, 12 Jun 2024 00:11:49 UTC No. 785546
Hi anonies, it's me again
This thread will be composed of drawings along with your thoughts of the day so we can share ideas, feelings or generally have a fun interaction!
I'm also going to use it to post practice drawings.
Feel free to participate, take care!
Anonymous at Wed, 12 Jun 2024 00:22:52 UTC No. 785548
thought of the day #1:
I wish I were braver. Whenever I think that this is the only life I have, I am terrified to stay in this position for the rest of my days: to be unable to do what I know would make me happy. I deeply admire people who are so passionate about a dream that they will do anything to achieve it. I think I am driven by fear.
I have been drawing since I was a child. I don't know what the world is without drawing. I have learned about myself and others through it. From the bottom of my heart, I have always longed for a connection with other people... and I wish it was through my drawings. I don't care if there are people with better technique than me, I don't care if it's aesthetically beautiful or not, I just want to make us feel something. I want to feel that connection for a few seconds, as if it were an electric shock... but at the same time I'm so afraid, and more than fear of failure, I'm afraid of being the only one looking for this connection.
Anonymous at Thu, 13 Jun 2024 06:00:34 UTC No. 785706
We are going to die and at best or future wont be eternal torture.
Also this thread is gay as fuck and fucking sucks.
Anonymous at Thu, 13 Jun 2024 06:16:49 UTC No. 785708
>>785706
thank you average anony
Anonymous at Thu, 13 Jun 2024 21:48:35 UTC No. 785786
thought of the day #3:
I hate this constant feeling of alienation.
I connect with so many emotions, ideas, thoughts, moved to tears reading, watching paintings, movies, but when it's time to go out in the street... where have the people I met gone? is it that I am the one who hides when I leave my four walls?
I'm not even part of the scenery, no, I'm not even a piece of furniture, I'm simply... something that is out of place, that shouldn't be there.
Sometimes I see people walking with tenderness, as if I wanted to recognize them, as if I wanted them to recognize me, as if I wanted them to give me a hug.
Anonymous at Thu, 13 Jun 2024 23:07:23 UTC No. 785792
>>785706
This post is one of those things that will randomly come back to your mind and give you cringe attacks once you hit 20
Anonymous at Fri, 14 Jun 2024 00:01:27 UTC No. 785796
>>785548
I'm not a fan of blogging on anonymous threads but this one is pretty relatable. My ego holds onto my taste for Japanese media and arts and crafts as if it is all I am but there's many other things in life to burn time on. You should pursue other hobbies if drawing stops feeling good. None of these feelings are ever permanent and it makes coming back to drawing feel that much better. If art is still fun for you, you should put yourself out there on some shitty social media of choice. Ignore the unpleasantries and keep up conversation with those who set aside time in the day for you. Send a shitty meme to someone you want to connect with, see what you have in common, then draw it. Learn about them then send them shit you think will interest them.
You seem like you've hit a wall in finding exactly what you want from your art. Is it purely to express yourself and elicit feelings from others. Once that fleeting connection is gone, do you make more art to chase the next "electric shock?" Pursue longer lasting sources of joy and nurture the relationships/sources that have sparked those joys before.
I for one act against my desire to connect by disengaging because folks tend to come with expectations. I hate disappointing just as much as I hate to be disappointed. It's a shitty value that doesn't help me but I'll burn out if I have to keep caring about people for more than a week.
But yeah, hope you feel better someday and wrangle the chains that bind you.
Anonymous at Fri, 14 Jun 2024 18:51:02 UTC No. 785884
>>785786
*hug*
Anonymous at Fri, 14 Jun 2024 21:26:38 UTC No. 785913
>>785546
cool thread concept
try not to abandon it after a few days
I'll help you keep it going
My thought of the day is that its crazy that I came to exist, its been an unbroken chain of dominos right from that one derpyy blob of dna in some oceanic puddle all the way to me here shitposting on the internet, albeit a miniscule leaf ona minisule branch of the tree of life i'm the inheritor of an untold legacy spanning millions of years, while we can argue the "true nature of sentience/conciousness", it is by no means an exaggeration that I am a piece of the universe percieving itself
>>785705
fakecel you won't be a stonecold like me
>>785786
disassociative episode: the post
also nice to see a fellow antenna enjoyer
>>785796
i assume you were doing the basedjak face typing that first part, *you* are that which experiences the media, dont define yourself by what smorgasbord of sloppa u consooom
otherwise decent advice only thing i'd add is this: If your resolve is flimsy enough to be shaken/improved by advice from anons you're lame
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Anonymous at Sun, 16 Jun 2024 08:19:28 UTC No. 786053
thought for the day #4:
I love music so much that it already seems ridiculous to me. Every time I hear someone talk about music that I love, it's like I'm directing a giant tube toward their heart, or like my heart has a tail and is wagging it rapidly in response. I want to study in depth the place of music in the development of the human being, in the same way dance seems interesting to me in that aspect, because it is the only universal art -as far as I know- other animals are only capable of generating sounds by instinct, independently of its function, it could be used as music (even bacteria... although that is another subject, besides that to achieve it they need human intervention) and of course, they can dance. It's time to download some books.
4 it's my favorite number.
>>785796
I don't think I made myself clear, drawing is the only thing that really moves me in life and it becomes painful. Thank you very much for reading me and taking me seriously, I wish you the best.
>>785884
hugs <3
>>785913
>try not to abandon it after a few days
weheh, just made one before but it died
thank you for participating and for your feedback.
your drawing is quite original and fun to look at, love it !
Anonymous at Sun, 16 Jun 2024 13:04:35 UTC No. 786068
>>785792
Whatever you say geezer
Anonymous at Wed, 19 Jun 2024 18:08:24 UTC No. 786455
>>786053
nice to see you post again : DDD
>your drawing is quite original and fun to look at, love it !
thanks i've een experimenting with minimalist art styles
thought of the day:
Mutton curry with lotsa fatty meat is the bestest dish to eat with rice
like seriously thick gravy curry with soft chunks of fat and meat is absolutely goated
pun intended
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Anonymous at Thu, 20 Jun 2024 03:09:28 UTC No. 786516
>>785913
dust 2
Anonymous at Thu, 20 Jun 2024 07:23:04 UTC No. 786529
thought of the day #5:
I hum a lot, while drawing, while I'm walking, while I'm doing anything... I'm always singing. I don't do it on purpose. Sometimes I catch myself doing it and I get embarrassed.
Anonymous at Fri, 21 Jun 2024 03:21:26 UTC No. 786604
>>786529
I do this a lot too when I'm by myself
Anonymous at Sun, 23 Jun 2024 10:21:46 UTC No. 786842
>>785546
>Feel free to participate, take care!
Im gonma assume that means i can also share my daily thoughts(trade marked). If not im sorry.
It feels good to be around my peers, i love being seen as apart of the group by others, i don't have to think, its tiring doe. If i do ammoral things while in a social setting(and others support it/its scoially acceptable) i enjoy it fot a while before feeling bad, i don't see it really as my fault doe, if it was wrong then why do my peers enjoy and do it?. Ill share a mild example. I shoved a kinda socially awkard peer(he wasn't popular because he read some dragon book novel thingy) into a wall and told him "get out the way" or something like that, muh "frens" laughed, and i did as well; but i didn't really feel good about it, just felt nothing. I think i feel bad because i saw myself in him, i have weird hobbiez like coding and drawing, but i don't talk about it or mention it, because i might get targeted and outcasted, and really all i have irl is my status. I hate it, but i love it at the same time.
Anonymous at Mon, 24 Jun 2024 03:57:24 UTC No. 786909
thought of the day #6:
I've always had a dream of wearing a shirt/sweater from my partner, like in teen movies.
My self-image is very confusing. I love experimental and interesting makeup but I can't stand the feeling of so much stuff on my skin and I'm pretty lazy about getting it all out. Also, I feel like my features don't go with that kind of makeup, which makes me kind of sad. I usually stick to Japanese fashion trends.
Anonymous at Mon, 24 Jun 2024 04:02:43 UTC No. 786910
>>786909
Shadow people scare me.
Anonymous at Mon, 24 Jun 2024 14:18:47 UTC No. 786939
are you there, OP?
Anonymous at Mon, 24 Jun 2024 15:12:45 UTC No. 786944
but im happy its cool enough where your at OP, to wear a sweater!
Anonymous at Tue, 25 Jun 2024 07:53:04 UTC No. 787050
>>785546
thought of the day #7:
Sometimes I really feel like I have some kind of maturational delay and that makes me sad. I am completely out of step with others....
>>786946
Anonyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy how can I laugh?!!! if it's adorable! I will keep it with lots of love! please continue drawing! thanks for making my day #^_^#
Anonymous at Tue, 25 Jun 2024 11:06:05 UTC No. 787054
>>787050
good morning, just woke up for work
i don't think you are delayed, bd anon. we all get to go at our own pace and that's okay! you're still very young and there is no pressure.
>please continue drawing
i will try, but be warned, i'm not good at it!
also sorry for invading your thread... :( by the way, this board seems to be dead for the most part...
Anonymous at Tue, 25 Jun 2024 14:29:22 UTC No. 787066
>>786937
I'm having a hard time trying to decipher this
Anonymous at Tue, 25 Jun 2024 17:21:17 UTC No. 787082
>>787066
yes i did a poor job with the chibi, broom handle especially. what matters is his head explode
Anonymous at Thu, 27 Jun 2024 05:14:50 UTC No. 787321
>>787153
Anon, you should be more compassionate with yourself. This is just your first time living! You are doing well. What is it that makes you so upset, if I may ask? From what I've seen, I think you are a very nice person. Please keep up the good work, we need more coffee drinking kitties in this world.
Thank you anon, I usually never get drawings and I find it so special that you take the time to do it. Thank you, anony! keep drawing! fighto fighto!
Anonymous at Thu, 27 Jun 2024 11:46:23 UTC No. 787350
>>787321
i'm sorry. i am turning your thread into sadposting, and that's not good. i'll try to be a little bit better so i can give you more drawings!
>never get drawings
.....how come? you deserve all the drawings, that's awful... i will try to draw something for you while at work. i hope you're feeling better these days
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 13:11:08 UTC No. 787665
i haven't been able to draw anything for you bdanon, i'm very sorry
i will get to it very soon
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 15:34:32 UTC No. 787670
Question/ramble of the day,
Is it possible to like to draw but not the drawing process at the same time? I remember scribbling at nearly every opportunity when i was little even if i dont remember exactly what i was drawing. But now after my interest has been reignited i hate looking at my current drawings. I see something is not as i planned and immediately cross it over start again on a new page then cross over start again on a new page... i tried to do what /ic/ told me; draw a box, loomies, drawing on the right side of the brain and that did help before i started hating how everything tuns out. One guy says one thing another person says to lean that way but i dont feel it. Reading 400 words or somebody talking about things i dont care about before actually explaining their methods does not make sense to me. How do i actually get better? I want to make general doodles like in this thread and this bird thing is a result of just drawing a bean but where do i go from here? Sorry if this is the wrong board or thread for this but i feel like i have exhausted my options just like i did myself.
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 16:09:12 UTC No. 787671
>>787670
Everyone is different and it's hard to know what will work best for you. It's important to know what you want to create before you learning how to create it. Who are your influences, and what is it about their work that you like?
Oekaki is unique in that it's more about expressing yourself or sharing your love for a particular subject, than about being technically skilled at art. Draw what you like and don't stress too much about how it turns out.
Can you give an example of a drawing that didn't turn out as planned and say what about it isn't working for you?
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 16:32:08 UTC No. 787674
>>787671
Here are some images i drew over the course of a couple of months going from newest to oldest. The first two scribbled through i think i disliked because they simply did not go to plan, for example the eye on No.1 is that ball which was completely fixable but for some reason my mind automatically rejected it same goes for two. three to four are attempts at drawing from reference while kinda using loomies as a guide for at least keeping things symmetrical while the hand is an drawing that i did while reading some book that i saw people praise on /ic/. While the hand has some misaligned lines i think it came out fairly accurate since my hands actually look like that.
As for influences i like many styles but mainly its memories cannon fodder, cuter work like The Girl from the Other Side and i like starsectors art. Then there are also gritty older caricatures with realistic proportions or max stirners portrait.
>Draw what you like and don't stress too much about how it turns out.
Thats the weird thing. When something like no.1 happens its like an automatic reaction to reset and start again, that is something that did not happen before no.4 for example. If you want to i can post more of my work, these are just some pieces that i thought show enough for a first impression.
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 16:33:56 UTC No. 787675
>>787674
and the stuff this guy draws is also amazing in my opinion www.blastwave-comic.com/
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 16:34:56 UTC No. 787676
do you like alcohol, bdanon?
>>787670
not op, but sometimes i feel like i don't like what i draw (90% of the time). i tried to get into drawing and get better, because it never comes out as it looks in my brain. i just cant draw what i imagine. and when people gave me advice, the things in my head didn't match the direction of the advice i was receiving.
now i just draw to make myself and maybe others a bit happy for a while. i hope i reach my goal one day.
Anonymous at Mon, 1 Jul 2024 16:54:17 UTC No. 787677
>>787676
>now i just draw to make myself and maybe others a bit happy for a while.
the same was also true for me but then this "rejection mindset" happened and i dont enjoy it anymore even if i want to draw.
>i hope i reach my goal one day.
I hope that everybody makes it.
Anonymous at Wed, 3 Jul 2024 13:33:55 UTC No. 787861
thought of the day: i'm a bird, i can fly, i'm a desert, i am dry, i'm a mind full of junk, i'm a spare in the trunk, i'm a rope hanging high, i'm a hand on your thigh, i'm a lance in your ear, i'm the ape of the year
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Anonymous at Fri, 5 Jul 2024 09:02:06 UTC No. 787997
>>785546
thought of the day #8:
Birthday is coming.
Hairstyles... they are pretty, so pretty, but it's extremely difficult, my fingers get stuck between the hair tie. It takes me longer than it should.
Today I saw a homeless man sharing a pizza with his dog.
I stepped on a dead bird; it was already heavily soaked into the ground but I could recognize it.
Today I feel very tired. I forced myself to draw.
>>787676
i love alcohol :+)
>>787861
love your style anon, i wanna squeeze my own cheeks, you have a particular and nice style!
Anonymous at Fri, 5 Jul 2024 13:12:23 UTC No. 788019
>>787997
whens your birthday, bdanon?
>i love alcohol :+)
me too. i unironically think it fixed a lot of problems in my life. what do you like drinking?
Anonymous at Sat, 6 Jul 2024 10:11:51 UTC No. 788141
>>788019
Today !
I like beer. I can't stand pure alcohol like vodka unless it's mixed with something else.... How about you anon?
Anonymous at Sat, 6 Jul 2024 10:19:58 UTC No. 788142
>>788141
Happy birthday!
Anonymous at Sun, 7 Jul 2024 04:54:13 UTC No. 788213
>>788141
was it today? happy birthdayy! its exactly 3 months before mine. ill write it down so i don't forget.
apologies for the bad drawing again. but i am glad i can give you a drawing for your bday too. best wishes for you!!! you deserve the best and i hope motivation, inspiration and happiness come to your life and stay there with you forever.
>I like beer.
i can't stand beer! i drink anything, but right now i'm kinda loving the cinnamon whisky. it's awesome. but, i don't think it's about the taste. i feel like being drunk shuts my everworking brain off and i love that feeling. how often do you drink?
these days i've been seriously considering leaving r9k and 4chan....
Anonymous at Fri, 12 Jul 2024 20:21:07 UTC No. 788652
>>788142
Thank you <3!
>>788213
I will treasure it with my heart, thank you very much! I've been a bit sick these days so I haven't been able to draw anything.
I love the feeling of being drunk too, not the taste. I'm actually very sensitive and if alcohol it's too strong I can't stand it, but the numb feeling is very pleasant (I even sleep like a baby!).
it would be fun to drink together!
>these days i've been seriously considering leaving r9k and 4chan....
well i can understand why... maybe it's not the best place to be, but i'd like to know if there is a specific reason.
Anonymous at Fri, 12 Jul 2024 21:09:28 UTC No. 788656
>>788652
welcome back! i just woke up from a nap and i checked this. i am sorry to hear you are sick, you need to get better!! the world needs you. stay strong ^^
you are right! the feeling is pleasant. if you are sensitive then it's good that you drink beer so you can take things slowly and have plenty of room to control yourself.
>it would be fun to drink together!
we're probably thousands of kilometers away from each other. :(
>i'd like to know if there is a specific reason.
because nothing keeps me here. i come to r9k and see the catalog, nothing but depressing stuff, woman hate, blackpill this, normies that. i understand where they come from but i don't share these views and it pains me to see people giving up and being mean to each other, when in reality most of them are similar and went through the same struggles.
i come to r9k to talk to people i already know, just to say hi every few days, or hoping to meet nice people.
so, basically i have no reason to come to 4chan. a friend i met on here told me yesterday (ironically they don't come here anymore either) that this place wasn't for me. but, believe it or not, i think it was the only place where i could meet people like me. i'm weird, i'm autistic, i'm socially inept. i am stuck in the middle, feeling like i belong nowhere. this is the reason, bdanon. do you not feel like this at times?
Anonymous at Sat, 13 Jul 2024 07:55:31 UTC No. 788692
thought of the day #9:
I'm always going to motivate you to draw but... if it's about trying to win some of this, it's really hard, you know? How can I excel? What does my art have that other people's art doesn't?
I have so much to practice...
I know in my heart that this is the only thing that would fulfill me and this is the only life I have... I have to keep working hard! there is no time to cry! keep up the great work!
maybe someday... someday my dream will come true!
>>788656
you always say very sweet things to me anony. You must have a very soft heart ^_^
>we're probably thousands of kilometers away from each other. :(
you're right, we're probably very, very, very far away. But the idea is funny, isn't it?
>i come to r9k to talk to people i already know, just to say hi every few days, or hoping to meet nice people.
I know... I mean, I'm not stupid, I know that most people here can be very rude, but I also know that there can be fun, nice and memorable interactions. Sometimes hate comments are so absurd that they are funny, it's also fun to study their behavior, but at a certain point it starts to get boring, same old unjustified hate... huh....
>do you not feel like this at times?
well... I'm here for a reason, aren't I? Precisely the same situation. Internet has always been my safe place (ironic knowing how this place is). I'm pretty clumsy. Genuinely too autistic. The only thing I can do is draw.
Anonymous at Sat, 13 Jul 2024 08:34:44 UTC No. 788693
>>786937
I love this, this will go well in the folder. Thank you for the art.
>>788692
Working hard will get you no well, being well connected does dummy.
Since it seems i am loved in this thread i will talk moar about my GREAT self ;3. I currently am in the process of trying to find more gig work, ive gotten to that i can play and "sing"(more like talk) to be able to do live shit(mostly free) how tf do i get more attention to myself so that i get more gig offers(i have made 40 whole dollars doing gigs for cheap this past 4 months)
Anonymous at Sat, 13 Jul 2024 15:04:01 UTC No. 788707
>>788692
your thought of the day made me feel a bit sad. i don't know what are your other drawings like, but from what we can see here your drawings are cute and convey a lot of nice, cheerful energy! just like your messages, bdanon. drawing is not an easy path, so remember to judge yourself with love, too. you're the very only person that knows how much you have improved and how hard you have worked. keep going and chase your dream until it's no longer a dream!
>you always say very sweet things to me anony. You must have a very soft heart ^_^
nowhere as sweet as you! i wish i had half of your positive energy.
my heart is in pieces, so it's probably not soft at all....
>the idea is funny, isn't it?
yes, honestly it sounds very nice. if we got drunk togheter though you'd have to hear me ramble about things i don't even understand, hopefully that doesn't bother you. :D
>I know... I mean, I'm not stupid (....)
i'm sorry, i didn't mean to tell you that you are stupid. you are right, it's nice. if i meet someone nice i try being friends with them and talking to them externally. but, that's like 2% of the interactions and the overwhelming majority of threads are, well, ugh.....
>well... I'm here for a reason, aren't I? Precisely the same situation. Internet has always been my safe place (ironic knowing how this place is). I'm pretty clumsy. Genuinely too autistic. The only thing I can do is draw.
that's not true! i am sure you can do other things too. sometimes you look at yourself with a weird, harsh eye, bd anon. maybe you might be autistic, but don't think about yourself as a one dimensional human being. at the very least you can draw, sing and be nice to others, you are also hardworking and perseverant. i don't know much about you, but you also don't seem autistic to me. maybe it's because we are similar in this regard?
Anonymous at Fri, 9 Aug 2024 04:02:30 UTC No. 790875
where'd you go, bdanon? i hope you are beating your inner demons
Anonymous at Thu, 15 Aug 2024 08:31:14 UTC No. 791413
>>790875
I had a relapse, currently recovering. Take care of yourself anon. I am very fond of you and I have the intuition that you are a good person :+)
Anonymous at Thu, 15 Aug 2024 10:59:09 UTC No. 791417
>>791413
wtf dont kill yourself dumbass suffer and draw instead
Anonymous at Thu, 15 Aug 2024 20:28:56 UTC No. 791467
>>791413
i'm sorry to hear that... well, i'm sorry to hear you had a relapse, it's nice to hear you're recovering! i'm rooting for you; you surely are strong enough to overcome this.
>Take care of yourself anon
i think i find more joy in taking care of others. but i don't know if i'm good. thank you for being fond of me! i'm very fond of you, too. see you around :D
Anonymous at Thu, 15 Aug 2024 23:02:23 UTC No. 791480
Heres my thought for today.
Family is going through some stuff im unaffected but i have been relaxing for a month since i became a neet recently.
My parents feel they are neglecting me since other members of my family are going through some stuff. They want me to get back to waging in the same type of job that i was working in for 2 years where i became miserable customers are extremely rude nowadays so I really dont want to get another type of job like that.
4chan has ironically been the nicest place to me so far some people really adore my drawings and that makes me happy.
Perhaps i could do a career in drawing but my parents dont know that i like to draw and lets be honest being an artist isnt a career and id be the type of guy to fail art school if I ever did take it more seriously
Maybe some people here would something to say about my thought of the day
Anonymous at Thu, 15 Aug 2024 23:20:55 UTC No. 791482
>>791480
>guy
Anonymous at Fri, 16 Aug 2024 01:23:34 UTC No. 791490
>>791480
i will give you my 5 cents about your thoughts anon
>They want me to get back to waging
i think it's not about waging, anon. with time, i've learned that parents usually want you to work not because they want you to "work", but because they want you to be able to survive on your own. one day, they won't be there for you anymore. they probably want you to be able to earn your own money and be happy. it would be nice if we could live without working but oftentimes thats just not possible...
being an artist is a career, but it's a hard one. a very hard one where your success isn't only tied to your drawing skills, but also to the ability you have to make connections and meet people and be charismatic and promote your work. those things are hard to do, too.
i wish the best for you anon
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 05:35:46 UTC No. 792458
>>785546
Thought of the day #10:
Today I want to ask you, what is your biggest dream?
I am still here. I want to hold on to life as long as I can....
I swallowed hydrochloric acid, even cut my jugular vein
but I didn’t die, no, I didn’t die
The moonlight shines so bright it’s dazzling
I leapt from the 5th floor, ignored all the traffic lights
and yet I didn’t die, no, I didn’t die
The moon at night is crystal clear, sparkles the color of water
And then, suddenly, I fell in love, like in a dream
Our love for one another was intense, and I was happy
But before long I was alone once again, staring up at the sky
and I could see the moon shining as though it were my life
I’m broken-hearted and in utter despair
but I’m not going to die, no, I’m not going to die
The moonlight shines so bright it’s dazzling
Since then, I’ve worked a lot more, like in a dream
The effort I’ve put in has been intense, and I’ve made a lot of money
And even if, before long, I lose it, well, everyone’s lost something
The moon’s precious light shines as though it were my life
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 15:23:47 UTC No. 792479
>>792458
before you go and suicide over love read Kokoro by Natsume Soseki
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 17:40:36 UTC No. 792487
>>792479
Oh no, I'm not going to kill myself for love, is a song by Jun Togawa. I like it because of the resistance and how she hold on to life.
Anyway, I appreciate the recommendation and I'm gonna read it.
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 17:43:04 UTC No. 792488
hi bd anon
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 18:33:36 UTC No. 792489
>>792488
Hi anony, hope you are ok ! :+D
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 21:52:47 UTC No. 792497
>>792489
it's nice to see you again, i hope you didn't relapse :( i'm not ok, i'm actually awful but still manageable.
>>792458
my biggest dream is to break free from my own chains. there are so many chains in my life that do not let me go forward, i fear so many things. i fear being myself due to fear of being ridiculed. i fear being loved because i feel like i have to live up to some weird expectations. i fear getting attached because i know that attachment will come to a painful, bitter end. i fear having feelings because i don't want to show my weak side.
my life is full of chains. i can either break free from them or take the easy way out, but there are chains that keep me alive, too. sometimes i wish i had the courage to go and... do it. but i can't.
that's my dream. in a sense, my dream is to not have any dream.
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 22:47:56 UTC No. 792503
>>792497
Pathetic in a genuinely revolting way
Anonymous at Mon, 26 Aug 2024 23:24:12 UTC No. 792506
>>792503
of course, why do you think i am on 4chan?
Anonymous at Tue, 27 Aug 2024 00:07:09 UTC No. 792512
>>792506
Because you're in denial about being a redditor
Anonymous at Fri, 30 Aug 2024 22:28:22 UTC No. 792832
>>785546
I understand you well, anony. Not having any dreams is not a positive thing, anyway... I feel very empty. I envy people who are passionate about a goal, so much that they would risk everything to achieve it...I feel like I'm not like that. I just do things for fun, of course I have passion, but a dream... it's different.
Thought of the day #11:
I found an old digital camera, I'm excited to record some stuff!
What do you think about street musicians? I think the atmosphere that can be created is very nice, I like to stay and listen to them for a while. It would be fun to try it sometime. I must learn to play an instrument...
I'd like one day to record something like lullabies - ambient - etereasy stuff... it is very comforting!
https://voca.ro/17GXnXsMwyZn
Anonymous at Sat, 31 Aug 2024 03:05:41 UTC No. 792846
>>792832
you might be right, bd anon. not having dreams does not really sound like a good thing either...
i can relate to your envy, my siblings are people that are very passionate and have worked hard to reach their goals. it's like if their lives had a meaning from the very start. it appears like some of us struggle finding it for a long time, huh?
>Thought of the day #11
street musicians can be nice! they're pretty common at my place - i get to see two or three everyday. some days ago i heard a guy play the guitar, and i was astonished. he was awesome, i wish i had 1/1000th of his skills.... he must have worked hard to be that nice, i felt really happy for him.
for the most part, i think i love silence.
>vocaroo
this is very soothing and nice. i didn't understand a word, but i'll buy it.
a little thought... today i petted a lot of cats. i wonder, should i have kids one day? what if my kids become criminals? i have always thought cats will be my companion, as life has taught me other people do not really enjoy my presence.
Anonymous at Sat, 31 Aug 2024 04:34:31 UTC No. 792849
Chase your dreams, dorks. You only live once, make the most of it. If you were a ghost looking back on your life, you'd see very quickly how silly your fears actually are.
Anonymous at Mon, 2 Sep 2024 21:06:08 UTC No. 793040
>>792846
Thank you for being so nice to me anony, it's my broken Japanese. Today I had a dream that I saw a girl at a music performance, when I got home two giant heads appeared to me and I confessed that I wanted to make music. They asked me what kind and for some reason I remarked jazz. Then they asked me if I was looking for a specific subgenre, it seemed like they were looking to help me but I woke up.
>what if my kids become criminals?
uhh I feel you. I have this need to be a mother but I'm terrified that I won't be good enough or that my children will simply decide to be mean.
Thought of the day #12:
>>792849
Thank you so much! you couldn't have picked a better timing to say this!
Things have happened. I don't want to live in fear anymore! working on a comic right now. I am researching zine events in my city. I want my ideas, my drawings and my heart to come out of this pc. I don't want them to die in this little box hidden from the world. I want someone to feel them!
Anonymous at Sun, 8 Sep 2024 18:49:10 UTC No. 793468
>>793040
You're welcome friend. Best of luck to you
Anonymous at Mon, 9 Sep 2024 03:05:46 UTC No. 793501
>>793040
hi, bdanon. that's such a weird dream... i would have freaked out at the sight of two giant heads haha
>uhh I feel you. I have this need to be a mother but I'm terrified that I won't be good enough or that my children will simply decide to be mean.
yeah... that's a solid fear. you could be the most perfect, kindest mom ever, but your children will be genetic lottery. sometimes i think about having kids; but even if i found a person that would tolerate my presence, are my kids gonna be born with my same fears, insecurities and lack of self confidence? i really wouldn't like them to go through the things i did.
you'd make a good mom, you sound like a sweet person.
> I don't want to live in fear anymore!
this is awesome! please don't let your amazing creations die. it would be really nice to see your comic one day.
by the way, i wanted to draw something to attach to this reply, but i have been doing awfully bad and i can't really draw anything right now. i'm sorry.