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๐Ÿงต Am I retarded?

Anonymous No. 16418207

>be not very talented
>my brain is psyopped into choosing the subject that possibly requires the most talent out of the 'natural sciences'
>my brain is further psyopped into wanting to choose a field that possibly requires the most talent within that subject
>my brain is further psyopped into wanting to choose one of the subfields that requires the most talent within that field, and that almost all the people who are known and accomplished anything worthwhile (e.g. something hard, novel, easily communicable, applications in a lot of other sub-fields) are extremely talented and have been from a young age
>be depressed because I will never achieve what people I look up to have, and I was under some delusion that I could be a great mathematician or accomplish something great my entire, somewhat short life and I don't know how to cope with that

I'm a good student but I don't think that is a necessary nor sufficient condition
What's wrong with me or my brain or the stimuli it receives?

Anonymous No. 16418220

I think the worst part is that I don't even actually know if I enjoy doing mathematics or not, I don't think I have done enough maybe? But it seems like I'm convinced to propel myself in this direction

Anonymous No. 16418232

It seems that you're trying to become a fictional character that you have fabricated in your head instead based on what you think is "prestige" instead of understanding what you actually like and what activities truly fulfill you. If you truly enjoy the field then by all means keep going you dont need to be Ramanujan to contribute something worthwhile but if you don't enjoy the doing the math like you stated you're heading down a miserable path.

Anonymous No. 16418297

>>16418232
If he's truly dumb then telling him to stay in a wildly demanding field is probably not a good idea.

I'm an engineer. I am not saying that we are a "talented" breed. But the amount of GOOD engineers compared to the amount of people holding engineering degrees is startlingly bad. The ratio is so bad I don't assume new coworkers can even do the job at a base level until I see some real experience or work with them myself. I also know these people struggle intensely and generally (from my experience) do not enjoy our work or appreciate their profession in any way. OP may want to consider the possibility that he could very well end up in a similar circumstance and feel immense regret as a result. It isn't uncommon for talented and engaged people to get burnout in things that they are deeply engaged with, imagine how bad the burnout will be if you hate your job within a few months.

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Anonymous No. 16418299

>Am I retarded?
>frognigger
It's more likely than you think.

Anonymous No. 16418358

>>16418232
But well I don't *really know* if I'm not enjoying the math, I've done it in school and I've received good grades, and I don't find any activity fulfilling to be honest as I'm quite low in mood all of the time but for some reason I really want to do math, apparently but it's like only passive notion and I tell myself that it will get better and I'll find my passion for it at university
>>16418297
I don't think I could live with myself if i really internalized "being dumb", which I don't think i am because I guess I have some childhood events and recent exceptional) grades from public exams that I hope tell me otherwise, but I routinely feel like I'm inferior to way too many people

Anonymous No. 16418362

>>16418299
did you sage the thread...

Anonymous No. 16418374

>>16418207
Try it, give your 100%, if you bomb you bomb.

Anonymous No. 16420060

>>16418207
There is a big gap between liking mathematics and trying to research the hardest fields and hardest problems that exist.

Anonymous No. 16420064

>>16420060
so true, I got really big into theoretical physics as a means to get le 'prestige'
Luckily I grew up in time, and studied mechE and robotics instead of QFT

Anonymous No. 16420505

>>16418297
>the amount of GOOD engineers compared to the amount of people holding engineering degrees is startlingly bad
This is true of every field too. OP does what every single one of those burned-out degree-holding people that suck at their field does: go into that field with little information, little motivation outside of magic thinking and grift through college with Cs and never do any outside projects which is where real experience and internalization comes from.

You can't just do the bare minimum with grand notions and say people who put in more work have "talent". Talent is effort. Not that certain brains aren't wired to be better at specific thinking than others, but just that, that line is very thin.
Like another anon said, trying to be a hero will make you commit suicide when you realize humans operate on motivation. You have none outside of fleeting ideas of CHANGING DUH WORLD and having no idea what that means let alone what the field you chose is even about.
tl;dr op needs to grow up

Raphael No. 16420540

>>16418207
I think you just wanna be smart

Anonymous No. 16423985

That's rough buddy.