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Anonymous at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:20:50 UTC No. 16573446

Psychologist here
>medcucks really think they can cure mental illness with pills

LMAO

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:21:40 UTC No. 16573448

I am experiencing the hallucination of a shifting reality where the face of reality has a low opacic second face in my vision, and parts of this overlaid, second face of reality in my mind will move. To explain further, every object has an overlay of the layer underneath, as a low opacic layer on top of objects that's invisible until it moves. It doesn't leave a hole or gap, the objects are still present but this second face will distort and fall or break away from where it's set, causing the illusion of a moving reality. From time watching reality shift, a visualization of currents of such shifting appeared in my mind from all the inverse operation I conducted whilst seeing the shifting reality; appearing as opaque gold lines that encapsulate my senses (over time I adapted to the shifting and an incarnate visualization of all that movement spawned, currents of such shifting). I feel claustrophobic all the time and a mentally painful and physically straining tightness around my brain which causes fatigue and low motivation; it feels as if I'm being touched perversely by hateful people; because I have to live alongside this hallucination, I have lost interest in life. Things about my every day experience are entirely unreal, and I am in a lot of pain because of the way the hallucination is affecting me me with the feeling of being breached and touched perversely by something unreal. As time went on studying the currents, they began to mess with the sense of my face and my sense of self began to shift as well, as feeling internally being torn or breached; very sick and terrible feelings incur in my daily life.

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:22:41 UTC No. 16573449

It has been 15 years. To this date the whole experience has evolved, one of the major changes that evolved over time are the introduction of three, what I have named based on their looks, ‘energy beings’, of whom ride the current and shifting reality, dictating the way it is perceived. They look like small icons with a creature's body and a human’s face that break apart and fit into the visualization. There are 3 of them, a male more bluish one, a female more pinkish one and a third, male, larger, more greenish one. They started about 3 years into the hallucination, beginning peaceful, and began to rotary educate me to learn how to sense around the currents and understand their signs and movements, by moving, and talking, in my mind. I learned sensory tricks and was pavlovian conditioned to react to signal and sign. This made the entire experience more strict and harsh as they could force me to sense and think in certain ways.

In the present day I am tortured by these energy beings, who drag my senses around, and cause me to error mentally, I metaphorically am tripped up mentally into imagining disgusting things or things that cause me mental pain, fear or fatigue. I have been told by them that they are going to burn me with the Sun; another thing that said is that the universe will collapse on me; I have also heard that this life is a torture chamber just for me beginning from the end of world war III. They trap me in the draft of a sense of someone else imagining, and I have to feel like I'm imagining, and see imagery of, a prolonged scene that's often disgusting, all through the tripping up of my thoughts, which negatively impacts me.

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:23:41 UTC No. 16573451

They abuse the shifting reality and my shifting sense of self, and I am engulfed by false senses. My subliminal sense locks onto parts of the visualization of currents and is hoisted-up uncomfortably, where I hypothetically bleed on involuntary mental input. One of the beings is always moving up to the left top of my head and my subliminal sense is pinned there, which is disadvantageous because I am easily caught off guard by their sensory attack. They attack hypothetically with whips, in the form of bodily sounds such as clicks and belches slapping against the upper region of my body, equipped with pressure and tightness at any part of my head or body, causing me to enrage and elements of physical pain. While I feel claustrophobic, this can be severely uncomfortable to the point I feel like crying. I can't calm down and am always at the edge of madness and sadness. These energy beings are perverts to me. I'm sure it's a mental attack from someone either on Earth or from a different dimension.

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:24:44 UTC No. 16573452

Other attacks I am victim of: inducing flu-like symptoms through the energy beings encircling me with false senses and intense tightening around my brain; causing shortness of breath by pressuring me and pestering with my chest as I breathe, sometimes resulting in panic attacks; heating up of the head to the point it's unbearable; forcing me to forget what I'm trying to remember by restricting my capacity to think in that direction; getting in my way while I'm trying to focus; creating tightness around my brain that is majorly uncomfortable so much so I can't sit still; problem when closing my eyes, my eyes overheat with all the torque from the visualization of currents, meaning for most of the day I need to keep my eyes open until I'm actually tired; feeling of wanting to collapse when stood up, resulting in me spending most of my time in bed and not wanting to do anything; disrupting my ability to communicate to others normally in social circumstances by forcing the presence of one person into my mind who receives all my expression and reacts - and making me unable to create original, or any, speech, spontaneously; involuntary thoughts and squeezing of my hand(I am always squeezing my hand because of disturbance in that area).

My sleep is distracted, I get at maximum 1 hour skits of sleep but I'd be lucky to get 3. This is because the hallucination plays with my eyes and pesters my mind when I attempt to rest, keeping me awake.

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:25:45 UTC No. 16573453

The energy beings claim to be torturing me. Though it is not word for word conversation, through sign and stray words I understand what they mean sometimes.

I am tired, uninterested in life, and I'm in a lot of pain and fear I can't handle every day. I'm also very afraid of life and especially the state of the warring world, and what the results of that may hold in store for me. I don't want to do anything apart from stay in bed so I can deal with the pain and actually need to do this or I feel too much pain and fear. I don't do much as I can't get into any media such as games and television, if I try to, I immediately lose interest. I struggle to find motivation to walk or engage in any physical activity, since I would have to take pain and fear all that time. I wish for the visualization of currents to end and my senses return to their normal state but it seems unlikely it will ever return to normal. I have been on many medications but none seem to affect the hallucination.

>Can you help me?

Anonymous at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:32:22 UTC No. 16573460

>>16573446
Welp, you think you can cure mental illness with talking.

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:34:44 UTC No. 16573464

>>16573460
There needs to be intervention, psychologists need to learn how to remotely intervene or hijack someone's mind.

Barkon !8v8vr3ErDk at Sun, 2 Feb 2025 19:37:58 UTC No. 16573466

Things I'd sacrifice to rid myself of my hallucination:

- my ability to dream
- my ability to become hyperactive
- sometimes I consider my sight but then I think I would miss vision so not my sight but it would be curative to my problem